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and im scared, i dont want to spend every night crying my eyes out again. i dont want to have these crazy thoughts running through my head again.
sometimes i wish there was a strong sleeping pill, where you can take one and sleep for 5 days non-stop. Thats what I need, a long deep dreamless sleep. Just like a computer that is hanging, I also need to be restarted.
how do I get rid of angry and frustration from work? I swear I get threatened so much that I think I will soon start fearing for my life.
If I mysteriously get injured, there would be a long list of suspects.
Work has been horrid so I dont want to think about it, instead I shall focus on the happier things in life.
Things I am grateful for today:
- Meeting up with Huan, Rach and Sue and having a wonderful time
- Yummy sea salt caramel ice cream at Tom’s Palette
- Planning for our next gathering
- Edwin for always being at my side (on the bbm or on my mind haha)
Alright was just browsing SISTIC and some shows I would like to watch. Any one wants to watch with me?
26 Feb – 14 March 2010 : TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD @ Drama Centre Theatre
6 Apr – 9 May 2010 : CHICAGO THE MUSICAL (ZOMG NEED TO WATCH!!)
been getting these tiny fevers lately, you know when your temperature is about 37.3? So you feel like crap but not fully ill? I wonder whats wrong with my body man…
I thought work couldnt get any worst but it did today. What a horrid busy day, so busy our entire team had to eat lunch at our desk. Sometimes, I feel like we are piggybacking so many people and I really understand why so many before me burn out. I wish someone with power could just look and see what is so fundamentally wrong and change something but I guess that would never happen because they are just too busy signing cheques or whatever they do. In the meantime, I will try to live one day at a time, keep an eye open for opportunities and just try not to let it affect me too much.
Found this on Amazing Posts, now if only I could achieve all that
Life Is For Living : Live It
- Never be awful to anyone, that person you were awful to may teach you the most.
- Always remember…you are a somebody, God didn’t take the time to create a nobody.
- Always smile, you never know whose day you might be making.
- Never ‘forget’ to say hi to anyone, never miss the chance to laugh or smile, never get too caught up in yourself that you forget to help others.
- Never forget that you aren’t the only one with problems, and most of all…never forget that when you feel like you only have one friend, that friend will remind you of all the others.
- If you forget about all the bad things in life, the good will take over.
- If fear is staring you in the face, close your eyes so you don’t have to look at it.
- Be yourself, you can’t be anyone else…The best you can be is you!
sometimes I think I dont fit in. This rat race is burning me out and I dont want to be part of it at all, I feel like that reluctant soul caught in the middle of raffles place on a weekday morning. Everyone is rushing and I am being pushed along even though I dont want to. Sometimes I dont understand why do we work so hard? I understand the economic reasonings and the need to remain competitive and not lose out to the emerging economies yadah yadah but honestly when you go, its quite sad to be only recognized for what kind of job you had right? your job is not going to mourn your loss, neither would you colleagues (well not very much anyway). I look at some workaholics, single in their late 30s and I may sound like a crazy backward woman but when I am in my 30s, what I want is a family and kids. Maybe my uncle’s passing has affected me in ways that I cannot comprehend but I want my child to be able to give me a beautiful eulogy as well and hopefully my grandkids to be running happily around, oblivious to their surroundings. I dont want to be sucked into the rat race, please let me stay true to myself.
I think most people my age dont like family-gatherings, dinners and what not, judging from the lack of appearance from my cousins and my sister. But I really enjoy seeing my family, extended and all. My mum asked me if I would come back for dinner when I get married and move out. “Of course! You know how much I love home-cooked food”And I mean it, family first before friends and definitely before work.
I do admire people who are workaholics, there are a few of them in my office but I can never be like that. At the end of the day, try as hard as I can, I really dont give much of a damm how good I am at my job. It really is secondary to me. Is that bad?
Today’s a lucky day for both Edwin and I. We woke up to an email from Ironladychef informing Edwin that he just won a hairycrab meal in a giveaway (yay i love hairycrabs!), I came home to find an envelope from SPH with $100 worth of Muji Vouchers. Apparently, I won some contest in Home n Decor magazine which is strange since I have never read that magazine before. But anyways, YAY!
My Shop has been updated with a few new items 
Sometimes I think models are of a different species all together. So perfectly handsome wow
Super model: Garrett Neff
Source: Jak & Jill
